Octopus Love Seat

Did you know that I could sing?

Did you know that I could sing?




That at one time it was everything I was



It was who I was



Today I feel like my voice is gone



When did this happen? How?



I’m not a scholar; I don’t want to be a scholar



I never wanted to teach



Or be an analyst



Or scientist



Or a researcher



I wanted to sing. All I ever wanted to do was sing.



But who can hear me now?



No one.



Because my voice is slipping away.



What can I do, I don’t know what to do



Isn’t college supposed to inspire you?



I feel like my successes here have buried me



And that my failures have piled up



I’m still so young



And I hate myself.



I’m nothing like what I wanted to be.



I wanted to be light and kind



And I come off isolated and so cold.



Did you know that I could sing?



Did you know that there is nothing that I would rather do



Sometimes I hear a song and it fills me with such heartache



I cry alone in my car



Because I could be the one on the radio



Once that could’ve been me



I could sing it



But not anymore, my voice is fading



And who would listen



Where would I sing?



Did you know this wasn’t who I was supposed to be?

Go Away

Bicycle Daydreaming

Gareth Pugh Fall 2010 Brogan

Honestly I don't want to sleep

I’m afraid to go to sleep.




In my dreams I’m trapped



Running underground



Dirty, frightened, wild



I don’t want to close my eyes.



But I sleep still, I sleep for days



Waking up is scary too



I live a strange life



I live most of it in my head



Because I am so disappointed with my reality



It comes in shades of gray



I’m addicted to color because I can’t manifest any myself



I don’t want to kill the songbirds



What other sacrifices have I made in the face of fear



I sleep because I can’t face the day



I dream to create something better



But all my mind can give me are shadows

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