Octopus Love Seat

Did you know that I could sing?

Did you know that I could sing?




That at one time it was everything I was



It was who I was



Today I feel like my voice is gone



When did this happen? How?



I’m not a scholar; I don’t want to be a scholar



I never wanted to teach



Or be an analyst



Or scientist



Or a researcher



I wanted to sing. All I ever wanted to do was sing.



But who can hear me now?



No one.



Because my voice is slipping away.



What can I do, I don’t know what to do



Isn’t college supposed to inspire you?



I feel like my successes here have buried me



And that my failures have piled up



I’m still so young



And I hate myself.



I’m nothing like what I wanted to be.



I wanted to be light and kind



And I come off isolated and so cold.



Did you know that I could sing?



Did you know that there is nothing that I would rather do



Sometimes I hear a song and it fills me with such heartache



I cry alone in my car



Because I could be the one on the radio



Once that could’ve been me



I could sing it



But not anymore, my voice is fading



And who would listen



Where would I sing?



Did you know this wasn’t who I was supposed to be?

Go Away

Bicycle Daydreaming

Gareth Pugh Fall 2010 Brogan

Honestly I don't want to sleep

I’m afraid to go to sleep.




In my dreams I’m trapped



Running underground



Dirty, frightened, wild



I don’t want to close my eyes.



But I sleep still, I sleep for days



Waking up is scary too



I live a strange life



I live most of it in my head



Because I am so disappointed with my reality



It comes in shades of gray



I’m addicted to color because I can’t manifest any myself



I don’t want to kill the songbirds



What other sacrifices have I made in the face of fear



I sleep because I can’t face the day



I dream to create something better



But all my mind can give me are shadows

Wow

Forest Princess

MLC

You give me honey and chocolate


You bring me sunshine in a vase

Just because

You talk to me all night

You laugh with me until we hear the birds

Even when you know you’ll suffer the next day

You stay with me

You make love to me so that I’ll dream

I dream of puppies and Christmas and family

Friends and oranges, a garden and fairy wings

When I wake up you say “Good Morning”

And it’s like the first time I realized I love you

Sometimes I want to say it, but the words get stuck in my throat

You amaze me everyday

And I wish the whole wide world could meet you

You make everyone around you glow

You listen to them, you care

So why me?

Why, when you could, when you should, have the whole world

Why did you pick me?

You call me beautiful and I believe you

I feel so beautiful with you, in your eyes I blossom

I feel so full and warm and silky in your arms

Like love itself. And I leave you every morning feeling stronger

You held me when my world crumbled

And you saw the light when I couldn’t

You showed me out at sea, and with you I found it

And my world came back into focus

Better than before, and even though I bear some scars

You never once looked at me differently

You stayed with me when I cried

You stole my tears and shaking

And replaced them with a calm

A calm I’ll never have inside myself

A peace that exists only in you

You laugh with my friends

You hug them and comfort them

You accept forehead kisses and fairies

Magical circles and yoga

And it’s like breathing, and they adore you

You love my mom

She is more than my mom, she’s like my twin

And you understand, and you care for her

She wishes you were hers, her son

Her North Carolina, sweet funny son

Her second child, because she loves you too

And you just walk around like that, unaware

Not understanding or knowing how you touch people

How happy you leave them, how you make their lives better

You deserve dolphins and fireworks, kisses and James Taylor

Vacations on mountain tops and a valley covered in rainbows

A meteor shower in Tennessee, kisses in the rain

And a sweet old man there to remind you that it still happens,

And a pounding heartbeat one to the other

When I run to you because I just have to kiss you one more time





So thank you for making magic with me



And I love you Mitchell Lee Campbell, more than I could ever say

Ghosts

He Wishes for the Cloths of Heaven

Had I the heavens' embroidered cloths,


Enwrought with golden and silverlight,

The blue and the dim and the dark cloths

Of night and light and the half-light,

I would spread the cloths under your feet:

But I, being poor, have only my dreams;

I have spread my dreams under your feet;

Tread softly because you tread on my dreams.

Glass Tea Pot

Wonderland

An Irish Airman Forsees his Death --William Butler Yeats

I know that I shall meet my fate


Somewhere among the clouds above;

Those that I fight I do not hate,

Those that I guard I do not love;

My county is Kiltartan Cross,

My countrymen Kiltartan's poor,

No likely end could bring them loss

Or leave them happier than before.

Nor law, nor duty bade me fight,

Nor public men, nor cheering crowds,

A lonely impulse of delight

Drove to this tumult in the clouds;

I balanced all, brought all to mind,

The years to come seemed waste of breath,

A waste of breath the years behind

In balance with this life, this death.